anger bursting ....

really cant remember when was the last time i had my anger out of control ... but this morning ... it almost crossed the boarder line ... if not because of the distraction frm few messages ... (actually ... i really have to thank u .. it just came in time... if not .. i think i would just throw everything at him)

i can only say .... well .. i do the form out of the reason tat just giving u a hand ... never did i admit its my mistake ... cause .. its so obvious i have nothing to do with it ... cause like wat i said ... i was not even at there the whole day till this morning ... and yet ... u could give me the face tat its definately my mistake ... and still can say tat u tried to contact me but i was already at hm 2 duty ago ... come on ... if u want to cheat me ... pls check my attendence 1st ... inside tat book .. i signed out at 11 lor .. and u said i went home at 930 .... come on .. r u trying to tell me tat u either dunno how to tell a lie or u dunno how to read the clock ..

anyway ... i did tat to help u ... pls dun think tat i admit its my mistake and cut of ur sarcastic commends and facial expressions ... cause u urself dun even know how to tell a logical lie or correct time !!!! ...... and most importantly its never my fault !!!! anyone with a brain can easily tell tat

take good rest ... and recover soon wor ~~

helpless ... think tats wat i am having inside my mind now

someone is getting sick .. but yet ... the simplest acompany .. i cannot ...

suddenly .. i feel the promises i have made r so .... fake .. so unreal .. cause ... cannot do anything ...

maybe its not my fault .. but i just feel so uneasy ..

worry is the only i can do now ... but ... i already promise not to liao nei ....

hai yo .... so difficult to control my feelings ....

red eye boy ...

well ... if the situation at my right eye continue to be the same by the time i wake up .... hmm .. i can have a new nick name lor ... "red eye boy" .... waw ~~!! sounds so evil ... heihei

it all started by a small small insect on the bus .... i never disturb it or something ... but i think .. it somehow ..... fell in love with my beautiful eyes .... as it could not resist the attraction ... it bang into my right eyes .... so painful ...just like a needle pinch on my eye ball ... i just could not stop my tears since tat time .......

here .. i have to said sorry to the guys who have been waiting and waiting for the update of my latest blog .... well .... sorry ... to keep u waiting ... cause .. many things have been occupying me lately .. so much ... so tat i even seldom use my computer .... hope u all can understand my difficulty and still maintain loyalty to my blog. ....

wat am i talking ...... ?!??!?!

last duty ... i finally got to experience wats like tat have a big fire ... with 7 appliance altogether ....... waw !! tats the first time ... i realise wats adreline rush .. far more excited than any of the drill ... but in return .. i seemed to sweat too much after the whole thing ... haha .. anyway ... i always sweat alot ... tat something i cant control myself

just found myself have a hardcord fan in friendster ... well .. boy .. things always seemed to be good and nice when u r not inside there ....hiehei ... given the chance .. u will get to understand .. haha ...

can i just being selfish ?? ... hmm ... arg .. this is such a difficult thing for me to do ... especially after all these years ... wait ba ..... i am always fine ...

lately ... i found i like to take the roll as ground commander... cause .. i have realised how good the feeling is when all the power is in my hands ... haha ...trust me .. tat really makes me feel different ... but all this .. i have to thank for my encik moonch for teaching me all the stuffs and always testing me on different scenerios .... because of him .. i have the confidence to command people .. ordering people with the tatics i want ...i finally realise why he siad tat i will start to like to be a ground commander..

gals .... its really so difficult to understand wat they r actually thinking ... its been really ups and downs for me lately ... trust me .. i am not always so unhappy as u c ... in fact ... i am quite happy at times ... just tat ... there r more reasons for my mood to swing nowadays ....haha ....

wats going on to me ..... ?

hmm ... i am really not very sure ....

i just know .... tat i am waiting .... waiting for a reply .... an answer ... something i think most likely i will be disappointed with ...

but ... wat to do .... me is still me .... and life still goes on ... a promise is always a promise .... tat i will always keep inside my mind ... and never break it

from now onwards ... i have decided !!!

yes !! from today onwards ... i want to slack .... not tat i dun do my work .... but anything extra ... like ... "lo, can u help me to check on this ??' " lo, do the fire report for me??" "lo, ratify this for me" .... sorry .. guys ~~ my ans will going to be "no no no !!! " ... cause i am going to learn how to be selfish .... cause i have realised no matter how fantastic my work is .... my efforts dun get appreciated ... thos old men on top need more than just one pair of glasses to c who are those sacrifise their off days ... work untill mid night to get the work done and those who did nothing at all and yet still get the same reward ... or if not better.....so why should i bother ... i want my off days .. i want to leave the station by 930am once i am off from duty ...and i want to have time to talk rubbish with other people during duty time just like everyone else ...

sorry ... old men ... i seriously think u need a new pair of glasses.....